chasing back d happiness

that day, sitting in front the computer...


suddenly type out a sentences on the msn...n put it as my sub-nick


"must rmb tat, sadness is behind u, happiness is in front u... dun let d sadness chasing u but chasing back d happiness..."


I'm the girl that easily to get sad...
from the day i know wat is love and i know the boy i love may nt be the boy who likes me...


From that day, many ppl cant undestand my sadness...cant understand my pass.

however, more n more ppl care lot abt me becoz of my sadness...
but am i deserved those care from them?
I'm nt deserved.


i keep thinking a lot n a lot... i dunno wat i gonna to do later will be right or nt..
but i think i should change..

Sadness is behind me, happiness is in front me...
dun let d sadness chasing me but chasing back my happiness...

ya, i shall chase my happiness...dun let the sadness slow down my life...

to all my fren, add oil for ur life also
dont give up, cheer!

5th yrs anniversary the day v met each other

5 yrs ago, v met each other at the tennis court in front of sch...
there was a seaside...
a beautiful seaside that in between the singapore and our sch, foon yew high sch...

I met u at the nite....
that day all chinese were celebrating the mid-autumn in our sch...
the 1st speech i tell you is: halo, i'm xiaolong.
Do u stil rmb? that is the 1st time v meet each other.

I'm still a high sch student at that time
and u'r just graduated from a university


i miss the time so much...
happy 5th yrs anniversary the day v met each other

那么多人想把我疼在心里，你却让我流泪？

突然觉得自己很有意思 四年前的感觉又回来了

那么多人想把我疼在心里，你却让我流泪？
这句话放在msn nick上，引起多少女孩的共鸣

那天有个学弟让我很感动

他告诉我，我好像又瘦了

他告诉我，他很想把我抱在怀里
他告诉我，他觉得我很脆弱的样子
我告诉他我吃饱睡足没什么问题，因为我不想告诉他我跟你吵架了

那天因为有烦恼睡不着觉而来我房间的番薯哥哥让我觉得很心疼
他一直告诉我，如果他不出现我们就不会吵架了
他一直很内疚、一直跟我道歉
我没跟他说什么，只是说不是他的问题


那天我想了一整夜，
那么多人想把我疼在心里，少你一个也无所谓

你明白了多少？我对你来说是什么

其实你我都有自己的自由

其实不太想在这里谈感情的事情的

前天我才下定决心好好的维持这感情，昨天我又难过了

如果可以，我要把字典里面的“以为”删掉
我真的以为我们现在的生活、做的每个点点滴滴都by default的为对方着想
即使是很小很小的一件事

虽然隔了300多公里、虽然是在两个国家
可是不管去哪里，都会给对方通知一下
不管做什么，都会让对方明白一下
还有，要坦诚、要信任

昨天我很难过，我不明白那是什么意思
我越来越不懂你，
是我开始不了解你，还是我根本就没有了解过你

对别人说，也许是小事
也许把我对你的气当成是无理取闹
可是我就是不能接受

不是每一次生气、每一次冷战、每一次气消之后，我就得原谅你

是不是我太过在意，设想太周到、太全面、太过保护对方的心？

昨晚5点才入眠，想了很多

是不是我顾虑得太多，不知道其实你我都有自己的自由